sustainable systems & storytelling
It's been quite awhile. How have you been? I hope you're doing well, or at least as well as can be expected with the current state of the world. Five years ago, I left Easter brunch early. After seeing my ghastly complexion and hearing my wet, hacking cough, my family suggested I go to the... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, I didn't experience any soreness in my legs all. I ascended a flight of stairs at work, as usual. I enjoyed a two mile evening walk, as usual. But one thing was notably different. I didn't stop once to rest my legs. For the first time in over 20 months, I walked further than... Continue Reading →
It's the final moments that define a journey and the first ones that make it possible. Both, we have total control over. Just over a month ago, I took my doctor's advice and made some drastic changes to my diet, in hopes of shifting my trajectory. I chose to embark on a new leg of my... Continue Reading →
Time rages like a river, rushing by, offering momentary glimpses into the truth of reality. The days pass by in steady succession, marching towards some yet-unknown destination. I have spent the last several years coasting along the ebb and flow of some evasive ailment. I've spent portions of the journey violently kicking and other stretches... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, I got an instant message from a coworker, causally asking, "Hey, can you save me?" I agreed before inquiring what, exactly, he needed saving from. "I'm trapped," he replied, "to your right." We work in an open office plan and the sliding glass door to the conference room had gotten stuck and he couldn't... Continue Reading →
Lately, I've been experiencing a subtle shift. It's as if, slowly and inexplicably, my body is making it's way back home. My bones are weary but my spirits are high, like a lost dog returning from an extended jaunt. Magma is quietly rumbling through my veins as tectonic plates scrape along, making space for something... Continue Reading →
Last weekend, my boyfriend and I visited a local indie theater for a 20th anniversary showing of Fight Club. The movie is brilliant, disturbing and complex. Every time I watch it, my mind starts spinning and doesn't slow for days. There is so much nuanced commentary in the film, from societal value systems and consumerism,... Continue Reading →
Have you seen those videos of toddlers receiving their first tiny pair of glasses or paraplegic dog receiving a set of wheels? The pure joy and enthusiasm is tangible as these previously-hindered individuals are given a new lease on life. Today marks day ten of Low-dose Naltrexone (LDN). After five days at 1.5mg followed by five... Continue Reading →
In December of 2017, my body begin falling apart. My physical fitness regressed substantially after two years of resistance training progress. I woke up tired and yawned constantly throughout the day, deeply offending friends and family. I struggled to stay alert at work and in conversations, and my acute sensitivity to caffeine slowly dissipated. I... Continue Reading →
Last week, my integrative physician recommended several new supplements to remedy nutritional and physiological deficiencies. I pulled out my wallet and said, "Take my money!" because, right now, it feels like the most empowering thing I can do for my health. Along with addition of glutathione (protects cell mitochondria by eliminating free radicals) and calcium... Continue Reading →
I entered 2019 with exceedingly high hopes. Health, wealth, prosperity and new beginnings were surely waiting on the other side of midnight. Though I know that January 1st is an arbitrary date, I had dreamed of leveraging its symbolism. If healthy eating, light exercise, meditation, affirmations and being proactive weren't quite enough, maybe the promise... Continue Reading →
“What you do everyday matters more than what you do every once in a while.” Happy (belated) New Year! 2018 is behind us and I don’t know about you, but I’m ready for the fresh start that is 2019. Though the first of the new year is an arbitrary date, I always try to take... Continue Reading →
Recently, after listening to a podcast about endocrine disruptors, I scoured the house to dispose of any culprits. Everything was clean except a protein powder containing the artificial sweetener, stevia. I fell very ill in December of 2017 while adhering to a paleo diet, working out six days a week, and rocking an sub-18% body... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, I received a call just moments before 5pm. An infectious disease doctor at a local hospital wanted to see to me. The medical assistant asked, "Can you come in tomorrow at 8am?" I did not hesitate for a moment in my response. I arrived and the doctor asked me to go over the entire... Continue Reading →
My anti-fungal medication has been rough. Basically, my entire body has withered up like a raisin, my liver is confused as hell, and I look like death. My boyfriend recently made a joke about the movie Alien, I think proposing a Halloween costume he saw online that involved a pregnancy belly, doll parts, and red paint. My... Continue Reading →
