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It took me a long time to learn how to let life be good. Far too often, I found myself sabotaging my happiness with toxic thoughts, emotions, or behaviors. Perfection or bust! I wasted so much time interfering in life's plan. Here are three tips for letting life be good: Gratitude Every day before getting... Continue Reading →
Fifteen years ago, my boyfriend died. He had been running a fever, but didn't have health insurance. His father, a physician, advised him not to go to the hospital, so my boyfriend and his then-girlfriend waited three days, until he fell unconscious, to seek help. An infection had spread to his brain, they soon learned.... Continue Reading →
Earlier this year, we received a final report stating that "re-occupancy is ill-advised." The thing is, we never left our home. We had recently tested for mold spores, which we later learned stemmed from damage that occurred prior to installing a new roof in 2014, seven years earlier. I believe that biotoxin illness is the... Continue Reading →
The last two weeks have been perpetual progression of fear, mundanity, loneliness, and momentary bursts of nervous joy. Quite frankly, I'm exhausted. I wake up with the sun each morning and then anxiously wait half the day for a good morning text from across the house. Covid symptoms are neither linear nor predictable. My better... Continue Reading →
Have you seen those videos of toddlers receiving their first tiny pair of glasses or paraplegic dog receiving a set of wheels? The pure joy and enthusiasm is tangible as these previously-hindered individuals are given a new lease on life. Today marks day ten of Low-dose Naltrexone (LDN). After five days at 1.5mg followed by five... Continue Reading →
In December of 2017, my body begin falling apart. My physical fitness regressed substantially after two years of resistance training progress. I woke up tired and yawned constantly throughout the day, deeply offending friends and family. I struggled to stay alert at work and in conversations, and my acute sensitivity to caffeine slowly dissipated. I... Continue Reading →
"It is such a dreary and dreadful day." The words tumbled out of middle-aged woman's mouth as two young women with the same pale face and dark hair nodded in agreement. She set down her breakfast burrito and continued, "I could hardly even drag myself out of bed this morning, even to see you." My... Continue Reading →
I entered 2019 with exceedingly high hopes. Health, wealth, prosperity and new beginnings were surely waiting on the other side of midnight. Though I know that January 1st is an arbitrary date, I had dreamed of leveraging its symbolism. If healthy eating, light exercise, meditation, affirmations and being proactive weren't quite enough, maybe the promise... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, I met my hero. I left the house and my car kept pestering me with flashing lights and beeping sounds. Hey, you--your tire pressure is low, you should probably get it checked out. Hurried, frantic, and sniffling through a nasty cold, I searched for a gas station with an air pump. I found one,... Continue Reading →
Having developed a feverish cold this weekend, my limited mental and physical energy have been even further compromised. So, instead of analyzing and synthesizing ideas, I've been contemplating the small things in life that I'm grateful for. I'm including a list of things that make me smile, but it's also an invitation for you to... Continue Reading →
The present moment, if you think about it, is the only time there is. No matter what time it is, it is always now. -- Marianne Williamson I think that a part of us knows that we are just a doctor's visit or a phone call away from being starkly reminded of our own mortality.... Continue Reading →
My infectious disease ACNP called yesterday and, with relief in her voice, informed me that the results were in and I do not have meningitis. Sure, the other lab tests haven't been great, but we've ruled out the diagnosis that would kill me. One more small victory. We'll continue down the current path for the... Continue Reading →
"Do you want to watch, or do you get squeamish?" I didn't hesitate to respond when the doctor offered to let me watch the ultrasound of my heart. I curled up on my side and gazed up at the large screen as the doctor pressed a slippery wand against my chest so hard that it... Continue Reading →
Last weekend, my boyfriend and I went to a store that sells shelving, boxes, and lots of other exciting organizational paraphernalia. We asked the cashier whether a particular item was available in a particular color and the poor soul was so incredibly confused. After rephrasing our request five times, he called for backup. As we... Continue Reading →
Today, I encountered a mythical unicorn wearing a sombrero and singing karaoke! I'm just kidding, but I did experience something completely unheard of: I reached the annual maximum out-of-pocket for my health insurance, meaning that my provider pays 100% for the the rest of the year. Score! This means that: My upcoming echocardiogram is free!... Continue Reading →
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