Process, Progress and Productivity Shame

Popular advice states that we should refrain from comparing ourselves to others, instead focusing our discerning eyes on who we are currently versus who we were before. Generally speaking, we make strides forward. We fall in love, get the promotion, become more spiritual, achieve a new personal best and learn an important lesson along the... Continue Reading →

Systems & Stories Aren’t Mutually Exclusive

Someone recently asked me whether I tend to think in terms of systems or stories. I thought about it for a brief moment before responding, "both." My blog's tagline is "sustainable systems & storytelling," while that of my previous blog was "the subjective perspective of an analytical optimist." If my ten-year-old self had a blog,... Continue Reading →

Subcutaneous Shifting

Lately, I've been experiencing a subtle shift. It's as if, slowly and inexplicably, my body is making it's way back home. My bones are weary but my spirits are high, like a lost dog returning from an extended jaunt. Magma is quietly rumbling through my veins as tectonic plates scrape along, making space for something... Continue Reading →

When Everything And Nothing Changes

I've been feeling discombobulated lately. Restless, frustrated, a little bit lonely, and unable to focus. The feeling is subtle, yet intrusive and pervasive to the point of debilitation. I begin each morning with the same routine. I take my blood pressure while reading the day's entry from The Daily Stoic, journal whilst sipping on perfectly milky... Continue Reading →

Braving The Treacherous Forest of Disappointment

I just received a call from my infectious disease doctor. "Your numbers haven't budged. You have a lumbar puncture scheduled this week, right?" My latest lab results just came in and despite four months of heavy-duty medication, excessive amounts of sleep, and supplemental eastern medicine treatment, the infection plaguing my body is not responding to... Continue Reading →

To Live More Fully, Contemplate Death

Spring is the season of new birth, followed closely by the child-rearing months of summer. Over the last several months, I've been watching as miniature animals pop up everywhere. The number of quail, geese, ground squirrels, night hawks, and king snakes seem to multiply as mothers give birth to the next generation. Yet, the increased... Continue Reading →

One Little Ball of Dirt

I attended Catholic school as a child and vividly remember the excitement as blaring sirens drew hundreds of of plaid skirts and navy shorts into a dozen single-file lines. When the monthly fire drills went well, the principal--a stern, gray-haired nun--would announce a "free dress day." The prospective of leaving my stiff skirts and collared shirt... Continue Reading →

Listening To Your Life

My good friend recently went through a breakup, and her therapist suggested that maybe she didn't listen to her inner voice when entering the relationship; maybe she ignored the little voice that told her that he wasn't a great fit. I think may of us do just that when it comes to our relationships, jobs,... Continue Reading →

Moments of Questioning

I want few things, but they all seem so unlikely: to uncover my truth, manifest my innermost thoughts, and capture your heart. And I can't help but wonder if that makes me irresponsible to pursue all at the same time. I am gripped by the uncertainty so often that it makes them all seem foolish.... Continue Reading →

Valley Fever And The $1k Remodel

Two weeks ago, I wrote about being sick, broke, and homeless. Repeatedly, I've been reminding myself that it's all about perspective. My in-laws just returned from India, where poverty was uncomfortably rampant. My good friend's boyfriend moved out without explanation, and then returned back the next day with the loaded moving truck and a half-hearted... Continue Reading →

Humble Delusion

As writers, many of us grew up with dreams of becoming the next Roald Dahl, Beverly Cleary, or J. K. Rowling. We emboldened ourselves with hopes of emulating the brilliant minds that gave us a sense of connection in an overwhelming and overly-extroverted word. Yet, simultaneously, most of us also had huge insecurities about our writing.... Continue Reading →

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