How To Cope With Distant Tragedies

Five years ago, I stumbled across a news article. A teenage boy in some distant rural town had been bullied relentlessly for years and couldn't take it anymore. One day, he took his dad's rifle off to a far corner of their property and took his own life. I didn't know that young man and... Continue Reading →

Forgotten Acts of Kindness

My boyfriend ventured to our local farmer's market to pick up our produce for the week. On this particular Saturday, the market manager called him aside to ask where I was, to make sure I was okay as I hadn't been in several weeks. I was at home, he explained, as I am at higher... Continue Reading →

2021 Word of the Year

For the last ten years, I spend late-December or early-January pondering what has gone well in the past year, along with what my hopes are for the year to come. It has always been a powerful and grounding exercise, whether the year is the best yet or a complete dumpster fire. A word can't be... Continue Reading →

Covid Struck, But It’s Gonna Be Alright

The last two weeks have been perpetual progression of fear, mundanity, loneliness, and momentary bursts of nervous joy. Quite frankly, I'm exhausted. I wake up with the sun each morning and then anxiously wait half the day for a good morning text from across the house. Covid symptoms are neither linear nor predictable. My better... Continue Reading →

If You Give a Kid a Day Job…

For years, I've been contemplating a career switch. While I currently enjoy my work in quality assurance, I can't help but long for something more than documentation, compliance, and perpetual wrist-slapping. I think I would enjoy something more tangible, with an end product or a happy customer. I remember many years ago hearing the suggestion... Continue Reading →

Seasons of Creativity

Lately, I've been feeling less-than-inspired to sit down and write. Though I start each day scribbling into a journal, the ideas haven't been effortlessly evolving into ideas worthy of being shared. An old acquaintance made a series of poor choices and somehow qualified for state-funded assistance; I am infuriated. My work contract promised a raise... Continue Reading →

8 Lessons Learned From My Latest Vacation

My boyfriend and I recently returned from our summer vacation, the first either of us has taken in many years. We visited Seattle, Portland, and several cities in-between. We came home with countless bug bites, a few souvenirs, and lots of special memories. Though the entire trip was spent on-the-go, I had just enough time... Continue Reading →

The Fear of Loss

I walked outside and instantly squealed. Two miniature ground squirrels, each less than two inches long, peeked their tiny heads out of the expansive den outside our front door. The next day, there were eight small creatures; the day after that, twelve. The three proud mamas--Squeak, Blossom and Sprawly--are doing their best to feed thier... Continue Reading →

Fearlessly Taking Flight

As flat palms and extended fingers are pressed into an assortment of mats and as shins are carefully balanced on triceps, I remain crumpled at angles—tiny grid marks forming on my forehead as the smell of 5-year-old rubber wafts up my nose, trying to steal my attention. I am learning, ever so slowly, to listen... Continue Reading →

Process, Progress and Productivity Shame

Popular advice states that we should refrain from comparing ourselves to others, instead focusing our discerning eyes on who we are currently versus who we were before. Generally speaking, we make strides forward. We fall in love, get the promotion, become more spiritual, achieve a new personal best and learn an important lesson along the... Continue Reading →

Systems & Stories Aren’t Mutually Exclusive

Someone recently asked me whether I tend to think in terms of systems or stories. I thought about it for a brief moment before responding, "both." My blog's tagline is "sustainable systems & storytelling," while that of my previous blog was "the subjective perspective of an analytical optimist." If my ten-year-old self had a blog,... Continue Reading →

Memento Mori

"It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live." — Marcus Aurelius Yesterday, we went on our evening walk and discovered a two-day old gosling that had been abandoned by it's family. After following it around for over an hour, observing a man sic his dog on... Continue Reading →

If You’re Waiting For Permission

On the dating profile where I met my now-boyfriend, I responded "maybe someday" to the kids question. I wasn't one of those girls who carried around dolls as a child, feeding the imaginary baby and then putting it to bed. As I got older, I was terrified by the responsibility of carrying and caring for... Continue Reading →

Subcutaneous Shifting

Lately, I've been experiencing a subtle shift. It's as if, slowly and inexplicably, my body is making it's way back home. My bones are weary but my spirits are high, like a lost dog returning from an extended jaunt. Magma is quietly rumbling through my veins as tectonic plates scrape along, making space for something... Continue Reading →

The Shape And Color Of Our Perceptions

Lately, I've been delving into neuro-lingistic programming, the fractal-holographic universe, philosophy on consciousness, poetry, psychedelics (a la Michael Pollan), and the relativity of our perceptions against reality. While there is so much to take in, chew on and analyze to pieces, here are some bits of the puzzle that I'm currently and deeply intrigued by.... Continue Reading →

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