Your Beautiful, Broken Body

I’ve been on treatment for mold illness for nearly two years. Leaving the toxic environment shifted my health in a positive direction, but the $2,000 per month cocktail of compounded pharmaceuticals and supplements has barely moved the needle. Thus, my partner and I will soon be starting a 6-month regimen of high-dose Sporanox (itraconazole), a strong anti-fungal medication.

The binder we have been on for the last two years pulls biotoxins out from the gut, but can’t touch those that have disseminated to elsewhere in the body. Theoretically, the anti-fungal should wipe out everything, everywhere.

It’s a mild, yet brutal treatment. I was on flucanazole for almost a year after a PET scan noted masses all over my body and my valley fever titers skyrocketed. My joints aches, my hair fell out, and I felt like crap. Everyone who saw me asked if I was on chemotherapy. When I shook my head, I was met with looks of disgust, as if I were faking cancer to gain pity points.

But, today, we know the root cause of the problem–systemic fungal infection due to prolonged toxic mold exposure. The published research suggests that flucanazole is not powerful enough, nor is the “normal” does of high-powered itraconazole. A double-dose of “the good stuff” may be the final solution.

And so I’m willing to go through that hellscape once more to see if I can’t jump back in time and reclaim my healthy body.

I’ve talked extensively about how the medical system failed me. Every new lead and every ameliorating treatment was discovered and pushed by myself or my partner. We are the sole reason we are functioning.

It was not our fault that we were sick, but we quickly realized that was our responsibility to figure out how to restore wellness. And that’s exactly what we’ve been working toward.

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If there is anything I’ve learned over the last decade, it’s that modern medicine keeps trying to fool us into thinking that our own body is trying to kill us, and that the pharmaceutical industry has the answer. They offer “cures” for lowering your cholesterol, regulating blood pressure, and treating autoimmune disease. Instead of encouraging us to love and tend to our bodies, they want us to fear them so that they can step in and offer us the poisons that actually kill us

I see the irony in celebrating a new pharmaceutical treatment, and then bashing the same. Bear with me for a moment. This is a means to an end–not the end.

You see, your body is wonderful. It’s the environment it can’t tolerate.

It’s the processed foods, the produce coated in weed-killers, the heavy smog, chemical-laden personal care products, harsh cleaning solutions, and the mold growing in the walls. Our bodies weren’t built for this industrial world. Eventually, we will all break, if we’re not mindful. Some of us may be more sensitive than others.

Most of “health” relies on our ability to truly connect with and embody our physical bodies. This means showing it appreciation and listening and responding to symptoms as if they’re messengers, not pathology. Displacing responsibility for your health on to someone else is a guaranteed path to illness.

No one can, or should be expected to, take better care of your health than you. We all must be accountable for ourselves.

The world is a beautiful place–it really is–and we are lucky to have a place in it. Though sickness and health, life is a gift.

Maximize your health, maximize your experience. Maximize your experience, maximize your impact.

We’ve got to stop waiting for other people to fix us. And this extends beyond just health and wellness.

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If the limited research holds true for me, the Sporanox treatment will act as a hard reboot for my body. When the inflammogen is removed, my body will be free. Like this reviewer, I’ve been told be several specialists that “mold does not colonize in the body.” Yet, not a single one of them could tell me what the alternative might be. They didn’t know, but wouldn’t admit it.

Once the mold lingering in my body has been annihilated, the body will become less sensitive to environmental toxins. And my lifelong habits of healthy diet and exercise will, once again, be enough to to oil this beautiful biochemical machine in which my soul resides and get it back up and running at full force.

Onward and upward!