Thoughts on a Quiet Saturday Morning

It’s been a long week and I’ve not been feeling well, so I’m going to keep it short today. Here are a handful of things that are on my mind this morning.

• I am so grateful my mom’s appendectomy went well and that she’s starting to feel a little better. I’m glad that the fall floral arrangement I dropped off at the hospital was there to greet her when she got out of surgery. I hope that her recovery goes well and that she can dissuade her 25-pound cat from snuggling. Ouch!
• I feel like a stranger in my own body. After years of building an awareness through meditation, yoga and writing, my body no longer seems able to tell me what’s wrong. I’m sincerely frightened by this, and can’t seem to reforge the connection.
• Human beings can only really learn about their interests through experience. We can’t simply think about what you’re interested; we have to do it. I need to keep learning and exploring.
• Vomiting is one of the most uncomfortable sensations I have ever experienced, and I wish it would stop. Today, Zofran is not helping. It feels like I’m been constantly hungover for six months straight and it’s getting old. Crossing my fingers I’ll be taken off the anti-fungals next week.
• Why does a PET scan and report cost $12,000?! And thank goodness for health insurance. After this year, I will never complain about the premiums ever again.
• Having been tentatively diagnosed with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS), I’ve been instructed to start wearing compression tights daily. Reading up on POTS, I’ve been experiencing the all of symptoms literally all of my life. Old lady stockings, here I come!
• I’m excited to pick up my CSA basket today and concoct something tasty with its contents: carrots, potatoes, zucchini, beets, red onion, yellow zephyr squash, and basil. Better yet, I’ll make the hubby prepare dinner while I rest.
• Cute puppy videos and funny engagement videos are some of the best pick-me-ups I know of. Thank goodness for all the wonderful people who have shared their fuzzy friends with the world!