Hey there. How have you been doing over the last few weeks? Do you have anything planned for the next few weeks?
I’ve been lying in bed each day for the last several weeks listening to the rumbling thunder and pouring rain, watching as the cracks in the blinds light up like passing street lights. Nature is such an incredible force, somehow both elegant and destructive–simultaneously signifying both rapture and salvation.
It’s been a rough few weeks. My boyfriend has been in-and-out of the hospital, as has my parents’ sweet little puppy. The valley fever infection has worsened and is not responding to treatments, and the specialist thinks that the fungus has been silently eroding my organs for the last three years. I’m still working to process that last bit.
Though feeling incredibly sad and scared, I am also in awe–as with the atmospheric discharge of electricity–of modern medicine, the body’s capability to fend off disease, and the rhythmic ebb and flow of life. I am confident that there will be a rainbow after this treacherous storm.
Here are a few things I’ve been enjoying lately:
- Quote I’m pondering: “Living systems are never in equilibrium. They are inherently unstable. They may seem stable, but they’re not. Everything is moving and changing. In a sense, everything is on the edge of collapse.” ―Michael Crichton, Jurassic Park
- What I’m wearing: Darn Tough hiking socks and Cabiniste Down Booties. My body temperature has been wildly fluctuating, but my feet are warm and cozy at all times.
- Book I’m reading: The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer.
- What I’m watching: TED Talks to help you find your purpose.
- What I’m listening to: Shane Koyczan’s spoken word poem, Heaven, or Whatever, which always makes me emotional, in the best possible way.